Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Selah

Selah is a term that is used at times at the end of certain verses in the Bible that has always intrigued me but I have not really invested any time in researching it.  This past Sunday I was part of a Jail Chapel service for forty women inmates and one of the ladies I would honored to work with spoke to the group of inmates about their time of Selah while incarcerated.  In a flash for me, the term took on great gravity and I have found myself pondering Selah ever since that worship service.
 
The term, basically, connotes to "take pause" thus to reflect on what you have just read in the Scripture.  When put in the context of people in a holding pattern in their life, for example in a jail cell, Selah becomes extremely meaning.  As I took over the worship leading in speaking to the gathering, the Selah concept kept finding its way into my comments.  Since that Sunday afternoon as I sit here on a very cold Tuesday evening, I have found myself listening more deeply, reading more thoroughly and seeking to understand in more depth what is being said to me as I journey through the hours since that jail service.
 
I have decided to blog the concept for I think there is more than ample example in our busy-crazed world where fewer and fewer people even think about pausing to reflect and thus to consider and ponder the next step of their journey.  Perhaps the hit to the head with Darleen's comment about Selah was made more imperatively in learning of a female inmate the previous Thursday night trying to killing herself by hanging inside the jail.  Today as I attending my weekly Bible study from Luke, the amazing Scripture recording Zecharias' comments at the day of circumcising of his miracle son, John.  I found myself reading and rereading during the Study in wanting to plumb the amazing gravity of John's father's words to those in his family that came to the ceremony.  That is an example of how my mind has been affected by the power of Selah since Sunday.
 
In a world seemingly gone mad, and it has, we must find time to take pause to ponder many questions we face as to direction, investment, decision, choice, for ourselves and others that depend on our decisions and choices.  For example, I watch student loan debt in this nation spiking annually as the quality of education and value of the education deteriorates and just scratch my head.  I have seen far too much example in my decade of university teaching of a significant percentage of students coming to college that are not motivated to perform or, frankly, are not academically skilled to take on that responsibility.  That is but one example where the concept of Selah should be forced to take place before that costly and wasteful decision to attend college is made.
 
My assumption at my age and stage of life is that truly using the toolbar of Selah in one's life coming after passing a gate of maturity.  It matters not the age of the person but the events that have crafted that person and the ensuing life that has been charted with good and poor choices.  I stand as witness to that sentence with raised hand!
 
Selah!  Wow! Selah!  My challenge to each of you reading this is that you will take a season and truly seek time and pause on life decisions but more especially to seek God's Will in and for your life via those decisions; and we all face them don't we?
 
So in closing, Friends ... Selah on your moments ahead!  If you are reading this you can know you are special to me and for whatever the reason at this very moment, that specialness is made even more acute. 
 
Thank you for allowing me into your world for a few moments. I am blessed!

Friday, November 14, 2014

Global 2015 --- A Masterful Insight

The Unraveling

Thursday, November 13, 2014

For Such a Time As This!

It is 4 am here in NE Ohio and I awoke with that powerful thought running through my brain from the Book of Esther which states: 
 
For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?"
 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZE6Jp61U44k

It is an amazing, intriguing and insightful story in the Book of Esther with destruction, fear, consternation all folded into the narrative for it is a story of a decision to step forward and face possible death and a story of extinction of a race of people if you choose to remain in the shadows of history.  Every time I have studied this Book and this story I find myself pondering deeply the applicability of that context for our world today. 
 
I was singing to a wonderful group of older people Tuesday night and in the middle of one of the songs this whole story of Esther came to me so vividly.  During the night this night I was reminded of this message for each of us triggered, I supposed, by watching some family video from 1987 when I was the age of my children now with hair black, still agile with the basketball and filled with some really wonderful and some really tough memories in watching the DVR drill into my mind and my heart. So when the words, For Such a Time as This, blip on my internal radar, I am challenged to assess what it is I am doing in and with my life and for whomever is it being done?  So I sit here this early, cold morning trying to keep lights down so my wife can sleep, to put my words into a readable form for my benefit but you can read as well if you wish.
 
Each day I read the obituaries and realize most days that those faces and those stories used to be about really old people in their eighties plus but it seems more and more those photos and stories are more my age and much younger.  I learned yesterday a great childhood friend, a year older than me, left this world. George French was one of those boys in my youth that I literally was with every single day playing football, basketball, fighting the Germans in our backyard citadels, watching war movies at noon on Channel 13. We would laugh, we would share, we would live as young neighborhood friends in the1950s and 60s did knowing all the time George would flourish with whatever path he took.  He was smart, well read and a walking dictionary and more than anything, he was my friend. He is gone from this earth and I think processing that surprising loss, for me has taken me down a reflective pathway on Esther's reality; she was put in that situation for such a time as that to be part of the existence of the Jewish race. Wow, think about that!
 
My eyes are a bit blurry as I write this but it is important to ponder that simple question, what is it that you are involved in that clearly reflects why you are here and at this specific time in your life journey?  Being around elderly people in this region watching the aging process do its dastardly work of permanently altering vibrant lives, spousal separations, watching families either bond or pull farther part is part of my time now. Singing and speaking to large groups of the seasoned veterans of the battles of life about Jesus and Heaven is a blessing beyond measure to me.  I have become part of their families and many just want to talk, to have me listen to their worries about grand kids, siblings and the dark world of loneliness that abounds for some as they know their clock is ticking toward eternity. Many are happy yet far too many are simply sad and regretful.  I was told by a precious lady, Ms Leona, Tuesday night after a few minutes with her after the concert that I was there at her facility in her life "for such a time as this" so that refreshed in my heart the inevitable onslaught of time and what each of us can do to ease the worries and fears of that approach into eternity's air terminal.
 
For me, and I can only speak for myself, I do believe singing has become a powerful gift and force and opportunity to soothe some weariness and lift some heaviness to thousands each year be they white haired in assisted living homes, in Adult Bible Fellowship classes at my church or in the never ceasing mountain of jail and prison inmates I serve each year. I must admit that in the beginning, perhaps a decade ago when it all began, there was ego in the mix but I realized as the realities of this ministry began to unfold in seeing worsening physical and mental condition happen in such a short period of time since the last time you saw these precious people, I was being affected by the challenges of aging.  It was from this transformation of singing for the joy of singing to singing for the joy of providing a solace and enjoyment to hurting and worried people, that the singing became ministerially driven for me and it thus began a major change in my own heart.
 
So at sixty-six, getting to touch the lives of thousands of men and women year after year in singing and speaking about Christ and his Home prepared for the Christian, seeing loved ones again, being in a heavenly choir, rejoining with family again and seeing tears joy and smiles of understanding; that is why my calendar continues to reflect the belief in me that I am doing what I get to do for such a time as this.  I realize there are many opportunities presented me to do other things, a blessing, but in so doing would pull me from away from this work so I have given this work a high priority in my time availability.
 
So my challenge to you this day; for such a time as this whatever your "this" happens to be, are you fully embracing that as your life's meaning and work?  See, I fundamentally believe that for the Christian, you are provided gifts from God which can be many and varied or one or two but in that gifting, you are expected to utilize that gift for God's Glory in and through others. In believing that, I am absolutely convinced that singing is a gift God gave me years ago but has enhanced the drive to do my best on every song and word I speak, not for myself nor for the compliments of others, but to see the gentle touch of the Holy Spirit on a frightened, worried or downtrodden man or woman facing mountains so rugged they cannot imagine or the eminence of death coming very soon. So yes, I am getting to do what I realize with each event that I believe I am here for such a time as this in touching so many via music and word. Wow, that is powerful stuff when viewed in the context of my heart now in words. Now I understand why I was awakened thinking of Esther colored by seeing myself thirty years ago and the journey and travail that was yet to unfold in my life and in my family to bring us to this time in our lives now with grandchildren the ages of my children thirty years ago recorded in the video.
 
Please know this early morning, now nearly an hour since this writing began, I have never felt more blessed nor more honored to get to do what God provides for me to do. With me, I can be insatiable in getting involved and invested in things and in people but in this day about to unfold for my family, I feel so humbled by the ministries God has crafted for me .... for such a time as this I believe! Can you say that about your own life and arsenal of stuff and activities? Take an internal inventory and assess your life through that lens!

Saturday, November 8, 2014

A Price to Pay for Being an American

With the turmoil of the recent midterms and the pundits squawking and spewing about the 2016 elections, I have pretty much chosen to not listen. We have a do-nothing Congress with an apparent get-nothing-done President so why should we really expect much better now with a truly lame duck POTUS, right? But the great news, we are living in a nation where each of us get to be part of putting representatives of what we believe into chairs of influence. I think that is pretty great and I still swell at the thought like I still cry when I hear the National Anthem if done properly and not disrespected with terrible singing, renditions, etc, (subject for another blog some time).
 
Yesterday a long standing concern I have had and have spoken to many times was rekindled against the context of our great nation and We the People that are blessed to inhabit this Land.  Yesterday I was reminded that today, with a national population of approaching 315 million citizens, about 1% of that total serve our nation in military uniform.  I find that statistic not only striking but downright shocking when you project what that is really telling us.  In the early stages of World War II, the ranks of the US military swelled quickly via volunteers and conscription to roughly 6 million.  So if you look at percentages, you can readily see the tremendous disparity in our national investment in the protection of our nation versus what it was.
 
My point is not to make comparison between 1940s and 2014 militarily but rather to again turn the light on the fact that  America, as a nation, had not "been at war" since WWII. What I mean by that is that the last real military victory our nation has undeniably experienced came as a result of not only the uniformed scores but of an entire nation invested in the effort to support those in uniform. That meant that an entire way of life was altered measurably so, in essence, the entire nation was fighting the Axis power in industrial output, no new cars, no student loan debt for nobody was really going to college, rationing of essentials, etc. 
 
That paragraph is a contextual rendering to get me to my core point this morning ... less than 1% of our entire nation's population is invested in protecting our nation. And that number is comprised of people volunteering to serve while the remaining 99% continue with the butter of our lives thinking only about what our stipends to pay the 1% to do our dirty and dangerous work when the news turns the cameras on.  If you then add to the fact that Americans are "weary" of war then there is this mental disconnect for me.  "Boots on the ground" has become a disdainful metaphor for actually putting our nation's military treasures into harm's way WHILE the remained of us stay home going about whatever it is we do which is NOT being part of defending our nation.
 
I have never been a proponent of the volunteer force that emanated from the poorly executed and elongated slogging in Vietnam.  That was our first known "war" where the strategic levers were pulled continually in Washington and not by the prosecuting generals who were too many times hamstrung for political reasons.  It is 2014 and we see the ISIL threat still unchecked and growing for the very same reasons; a reluctant national leadership to fully engage a global threat. I mean, just watch the news, you pick the station, and it becomes dizzying at not only ISIL but many other affiliate thugdomes vying for the lead dog in the world of terrorists. In other words, this, in my humble opinion, is yet another example of kicking cans down the street due to upcoming elections, too much debt, not wanting to hurt some group's feelings, etc, etc and all the while our troops are being sent in minimal numbers to do our bidding.
 
"War weary" means when an entire nation is tired of the sacrifice and investment in blood and treasure to defend our nation so when I hear that term today, it is laughable really when you realize, looking at the numbers, the only people that are weary are our troops and their families while the rest of us sit on the sidelines watching NFL games five nights a week (my wife tells me), watching our societal values dissipate into a mist each day, prisons overflowing due to too many men and women fundamentally having nothing to do thus bored and turn to drugs and crime, etc. etc.
 
So here is my restated point and I will restate this from my own personal perspective and life. I believe in my heart that in a great, modern nation like America that every male and female at the age of 18 should be required by law to serve our nation in some capacity for two or three years with the military being one of the very few options. Other nations in the G20 and more do exactly that so you can know.  I believe our nation deserves to be serviced by the fruit of this nation for we the citizenry owe this nation part of our lives I believe in my heart.  This approach would generate a level of accountability far too many eighteen year olds miss completely in their life's arsenal of tools to be successful as their life unfolds.  Is there danger? Absolutely but I rarely recall a time when being successful did not require a modicum of risk and danger.
 
Many will dispel my thoughts as too harsh, too bold, too whatever but when I see daily that our 1% we are paying and paying well as compared ot previous militaries are rotating multiple times into and out of combat zones because of lack of human reserves trained for combat, it causes me to grow very frustrated. That is blatantly unfair to the troopers and their families. We are a great nation but not enough of the greatness of our nation are willing to invest some of themselves into being part of this greatness. I find that disturbing. I see the evidence too often that Ipods are much more beneficial than the effective use of and M16 while parents whine abou why their kids are not more involved. Really! Do you wonder why that is?  (cyncism intended)
 
I learned a long time ago about consulting which is so very true in this context, that until a client "gets skin in the game" if seeking advice, the client will never fully invest into the consultation.  If  the citizenry do not invest themselves into the protection of this place where they were born and will career, the depth of devotion of the nation and its protection will be that of a dis-engendered third part instead of a full invested citizen.  There used to be pride in serving our nation; I sense that was a time lost and that is very sad; very, very sad and dangerous.  Why the politicians choose not to embrace this still baffles me but  then I remember, politicians live by currying favor; not boldly going where no man or woman has gone meaning into unpopular fields that if navigated would be an amazing boost for our nation.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

A Wake Up Call for America -- I Hope!

I did not sleep too well for some reason so got up at 4 am to get my first dose of electoral results from yesterday. Nothing I have seen surprised me meaning the Republicans have dominated the political landscape nationally and at state levels.  There will be much jubilation and wound licking in the next day or so and even greater angst spewed at Obama in his first six years as what I will term, The Big Fizzle, which is well deserved but that is not where my heart is this morning.  I believe the election results, at the aggregate, are a referendum on how badly our nation has moved from our global role as leader, protector, beacon of hope and mountaintop of opportunity.
 
For me perhaps the most telling and most disturbing thing I saw through this last twenty-four hours is an indictment on this POTUS was an in depth interview and discussion on Charlie Rose with Mark Halperin and another man that works with Halpein that co-chair a new political program for Bloomburg News. I have watched Halperin often and find him credible as I do Rose; so I listen to their insight.  Rose asked the question of the two talented, connected me what they felt Obama needed to do and would do in his remaining two years as POTUS assuming, then, the Republicans took over the Senate and strengthened the House which, we know now, is what has been rendered?  The dialog was not only disappointing but absorbingly worrying for fundamentally both men felt Obama would not go into a passionate mode in this new reality, build relationships he has chosen to not do in his first six years and that they doubted Congress nor the nation would see much difference for "Obama just does not want to nor sees the need to be that way."
 
Remember when George W. took his infamous "thumpin"? He made light of it, stepped back, changed course and sought to build bridges, to his credit, he did to some degree. At least he saw the need to do something different and embarked on a journey to change course and behavior for the sake of the Nation.  In other words paraphrasing the comments last evening, the apparent Obama arrogance and intellect will preclude any additional effort to be part of fixing this morass he has helped create but will stand on the sideline with Executive Order ink being spilled far too much thus bypassing the hard Constitutional work of working with Congress! That is sad and borders on criminal if correct and I can only believe from what I have seen that that prediction will in fact be correct.
 
I wanted to see this early morning how the Asian markets were reacting to the Obama Thumping and sure enough, the US dollar strength has escalated against the Yen to a seven year high and the Dow Futures show a markedly improved performance meaning the Dow in America should reflect well by higher numbers while gold and oil remain unique low in price. All that translates by the markets in Asia liking the Thump in belief America will now be a better partner for progress to which I say, we will see!
 
See, for me, I am perfectly neutral on the implication of the predictable election results.  Americans are scared and jittery and have lost faith in our POTUS; I have admittedly for I have seen next to nothing from this POTUS that causes me to be proud or happy and joyous about what I have watched. I have seen arrogance, disconnect, miscues, pull back, placating and what I believe is a lifestyle too lavish.   There will still be some reading this that will rationalize my comments as the age old and now worn out Racism excuse but Obama's own electorate have soured and gone to the mattresses with such blatant poor performance and politicking over leading behavior. I know I certainly am exhausted in wondering just what can get messed up next instead of like watching a Peyton Manning lead a team knowing he will do something to make the win a reality.  I think America longs and yearns for a"quarterback" that wants and can win the big games regardless of pressure, crowd noise, etc.  THAT is what true leaders do; THEY AVOID THE NOISE and find a way to win. 
 
My concern, now, is that Obama is tired, wants only to burnish a historical Presidency on its hard to find merits and just get the whole thing over.  My as well concern is that the Thumping by the Republicans will turn into an all out war with the Republicans turning cannibalistic with their adversaries as well as their own ranks.  NOW is the time for Boehner and McConnell to be the big boys in the house and embrace, drive, change; be the winners I believe and hope they can be and in a partnership with Obama. So we will see won't just how long this party lasts for the world and our enemies are watching!
 
America is not better this morning just because of yesterday. America is sick, hurting and disjointed for lack of political leadership. So yesterday prayerfully will be a wake up call for a new light on the hill top that both parties will light and keep shining brightly for the world to navigate as ISIL grows, our values debase, our citizenry divided.  My plea is for the leaders to embrace the differences that are many and blatant and LEAD THIS COUNTRY!

Monday, November 3, 2014

Debt ... The Globe's Largest and Most Deadly Cancer

I teach my students strongly that whoever owns your debt, owns your future.  In today's Wall Street Journal, I have pasted in below, is a mind-blowing editorial on the phenomenal global increase in debt.  It is a most worthy read and each that read should do an inventory of their own economy and calculate the percentage of debt your family is attempting to carry. For many, it will be startling as it should be.  
 
I still just have to scratch my head on the matter of student loan debt in the ease to obtain and the amazing degree of misuse of those borrowed funds by far too many students to purchase cars, computers, "toys" having little to do with education.  Then, a new phenomenon is this general sense by far too many students that feel so real gravity of responsibility to actually pay off the mounting debt that will scar credit reports for decades.  It is conundrum that does not get near the ink or camera lights of warning it deserves.  Some of my former students will not like that paragraph but many, too many, if they process it will agree to my context on this matter.
 
At the aggregate of the whole matter is that we, the global villagers, are enjoying the cocaine-type euphoria of living beyond our financial means thus bridging the addiction high by borrowing more and more.  A vicious cycle is a gross understatement!
 
Here is what is most concerning to me; for years I have believed and taught that people only fear that which they do not know or understand. Once the light of understanding is brought into the cave, fear dissipates.  I see less and less fear on this matter of debt for it has almost become accepted and in the mainstream of reality so why worry about it.  I mean, look at our own United States government and try, you cannot by the way, to imagine the immeasurable debt our own government is stacking up via borrowing from foreign nations as well as continuing to print money that is basically worthless.  That bubble will burst and it will be a flood of blood that will spill from that bubble.  Japan is a great, small, example of what this can lead to which not enough people are seriously studying I sense. 
 
This very article below speaks about Japan's newest Prime Minister choosing to pull out all the stops by injecting Keynesian economic logic meaning more and bigger taxpayer funded government bureaucracies at the Japanese debacle; the miracle of the 1980s as I studied when I was in graduate school. My greatest concern about these last six years of our own nation is that same direction of more government to fix fundamental issues. Remember, in our world today, the US government is the largest employer in the world; tax funded. Think about that! Oh how quickly things change in the wrong direction!

Debt begins with one person choosing to not go down that minefield for their are unexploded mines abounding.  Debt, like life, is a choice! Choose well for generations are in the balance.  Read the article please and reflect. 


Missing the Prime Suspect in the Global Slowdown

World-wide debt as a percentage of GDP has jumped 36% since 2008, to a record high of 212%.


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Getty ImageGeorge Melloan
‘You want quantitative easing? I’ll show you quantitative easing!” That’s the message Japan’s central banker Haruhiko Kuroda sent to global securities markets Friday, spurring the Dow to a record high. He announced that he will boost asset purchases by up to one-third, snapping up even more debt paper than the Japanese treasury is issuing.
Mr. Kuroda believes he is fighting deflation, an idea that seems to be contagious. The European Central Bank (ECB) also has been buying bonds to stir the continent out of its torpor. And President James Bullard of the St. Louis Federal Reserve Bank urged the Fed to extend its QE purchases of government securities beyond the planned October shutdown last week, advice the Federal Open Market Committee chose not to take. Mr. Bullard told an interviewer that he feared “inflation expectations” were too low, a concern cut from the same cloth as Mr. Kuroda’s fear of deflation.
Many people think low inflation and inflation expectations are a good thing. U.S. consumer prices barely budged in September and the consumer-price index (CPI) was up only 1.7% from a year earlier. Motorists are enjoying the lower cost of filling gas tanks.
But the Fed wants higher inflation, targeting a rate of 2%. That would have certain beauties for the government if not for consumers. Inflation devalues debt, and of particular moment is federal government debt, which has soared well over $4 trillion in the past four years to $17.9 trillion. Inflation expectations are believed to stimulate spending as consumers try to get ahead of price increases, a presumed effect that appeals to the Fed’s Keynesians.
Central-bank worries about deflation may be misplaced. Couldn’t it be that it is the mounting global debt that is dragging down economic growth, not a lack of fiscal or monetary stimulus? Yet central banks seem wedded to the so-called monetary stimulus course set by the Fed after the stock-market crash of 2008.
The rising debt burden was detailed on Sept. 16 in the annual Geneva Report, vetted by an international assemblage of 70 central-bank officials and other monetary specialists under the aegis of the International Centre for Monetary and Banking Studies (ICMB). The report concluded that central banks “should be slow to raise interest rates” because of the continued and disturbing expansion of global debt. There would seem to be an element of illogic in that advice. An outsider might think that raising interest rates would be the correct way to curb debt excesses, but then outsiders also think that inflation is bad, not good.
The Geneva report is titled “Deleveraging, What Deleveraging?” It says that after the debt explosion of the 2000s contributed to the 2008 crash, there was a widespread expectation that governments, households and businesses would shed debt, or “deleverage.” But that hasn’t happened. While American households have de-leveraged, world-wide debt has continued to grow rapidly, thanks in large part to governmental deficits. According to the report, global debt (excluding that of the financial sector) as a percentage of GDP has risen 36 percentage points since 2008, to a record 212%.
At the same time, “world growth and inflation are also lower than previously expected,” creating a “poisonous combination” of rising debt and slow growth. The growth slowdown makes deleveraging harder while at the same time high indebtedness exacerbates the economic slowdown, a phenomenon the report describes as a “vicious loop.”
Governments are big contributors to the debt boom. The U.S. ratio of public debt to GDP has climbed 40 percentage points to 105% since 2008. The report cites studies showing that high debt levels increase vulnerability to financial crises and give rise to “moral hazard” issues deriving from borrower expectations of government bailouts.
The Geneva report reflects the anxiety that afflicts central bankers around the world at a time when the most important central bank, the U.S. Fed, seems to be at sixes and sevens about where to go next with the highly unorthodox monetary policy it has practiced since 2008 with so little positive effect.
As the global economy slows from an already low rate of growth, despite recent signs of life in the U.S., it should be clear that artificially suppressed interest rates have done little to stimulate growth. They have discouraged saving, hence retarding capital formation, and have encouraged borrowing, adding to the economic burden of debt service. If, as some economists argue, the Fed is keeping inflation in check despite zero-bound interest rates by exercising its Dodd-Frank powers over bank lending, the equivalence of that to central planning can hardly be considered healthy.
The Fed well remembers what happened in 2006 when belatedly raising rates to a normal level caused pumped-up housing prices to fall. But it perhaps forgets that the most important factor in the 2008 crash was that falling house prices exposed the frailties of the many billions of dollars of toxic securities in circulation, held by the likes of Lehman Brothers, that were based on subprime mortgages engendered by government affordable-housing policies. Had it not been for those faulty debt instruments, the debt bubble could probably have been deflated with relatively little damage.
As the Geneva report suggests, central bankers are now motivated by fear, no doubt hoping that the day of reckoning for the continuing global rise of debt will occur on someone else’s watch. But what if it doesn’t? Might it not be better to take more sensible measures now, like allowing interest rates to rise to a level that would bring saving and borrowing into better balance?
Mr. Melloan, a former columnist and deputy editor of the Journal editorial page, is the author of “The Great Money Binge: Spending Our Way to Socialism” (Simon & Schuster, 2009).

Saturday, November 1, 2014

A Candle in the Cave

Sounds like a title to a song or a poem I suppose but for me those five little words capture a fifteen minute conversation I had with a convicted felon last evening now facing a murder charge.  I will not use his name but will call him, Joe!. 
 
Joe is a small framed man, about mid forties I would imagine, African American and has stumbled through this life in a cave of darkness and despair as I have grown to know him over the last few months.  My first dealings with Joe was in a chapel service I was conducting and he was being disruptive by talking thus disturbing the purpose of the chapel which is to worship Jesus Christ in word and song.  I will not tolerate disrespect from any inmate for that sole purpose and have had several inmates removed from services for that very reason.  Joe quieted after I fairly nicely called him down and he realized he was being disruptive. This was before the murder charge for he had just been brought into the jail on a separate felony charge and I think, now, he was coming off his cocaine when the initial chapel service issue arose I described above. I assume Joe did not care too much for me in having handled the disruption but the other thirty inmates appreciated the opportunity to worship in quiet and solitude; as did I!
 
That night when I returned home Joe would not leave my mind and I felt a burden for him for some reason.  I developed a personal letter to him that evening intending to encourage him through this time he was facing; still before the murder charge please keep in mind.  I enclosed several other writings I had written from my life journey in the prison ministry that serve to give the recipient something worthwhile to read while incarcerated intending to educate and encourage.  As an aside, I have written now close to 1,800 such letters to inmates in other prisons and have received hundreds of letters from them while on their journey. So the letter writing is a corollary ministry that has evolved.
 
A week or so later I was back at the jail for two more chapel services and Joe was one of those that entered the service for I recognized him as I greeted him. He was embarrassed and downtrodden for the murder charge, I learned, had just been lodged against him that day.  I was unaware of that on the entry but when the inmates were seated, I walked back to Joe, shook hands pulling him to standing position and hugged him telling him how glad I was to get to worship with him. He teared immediately and I felt something was going on with Joe I did not know.  He was very quiet but attentive the entire service and thanked me warmly on his departure.  Joe would not leave my mind nor my heart!
 
A week later I was back at the Jail for another evening and the corrections officer asked me if I would meet with Joe since he now could not come to the chapel because the murder charge killed that opportunity for that charge made him categorized as a flight or suicide risk so he could not leave his cell area.  When the services were over that night the CO took me to Joe and was able to sit across from each other for twenty minutes face-to-face. He was depressed, frail and seemed hopeless. I hurt!  As he unpacked the story of his life, which I have heard so many, many times in this eleven years of this work, my heart was moved. I never excuse the crime nor the consequences for they have done the crime so they will do the time; that is consequence for bad choice thus making it worthy of the consequence. That night as I departed for home, I asked Joe if we could pray and he readily wanted me to.
 
I pulled my chair up to his side, held both his hands in both of mine and I prayed for his heart, his life, his days ahead and for peace in the midst of the storm he faced. I felt his body shaking from crying; a broken, exhausted young man still in cave in which he had lived his entire life. He thanked me as we hugged before I left for him.  My heart ached!  I wrote him another letter that evening hoping to encourage him and to challenge him to invest time in reading the Bible I had given him the night I just described; to seek God's Will for his life!
 
That has been roughly four weeks ago and I was back out there last evening for two more services.  I asked the CO how Joe was doing and he said he seemed to be doing much better and that he sees him reading his Bible often. He asked me if I wanted to visit with Joe which I did so as I got the second service up and running, the CO escorted me to Joe. We sat and I saw a man with a small smile, he had gained a little weight, he was thrilled I was visiting with him as well as shocked for he had had not a single visitor, letter nor call from anyone since that night I described above. I was so glad I had written him those two times. and gave him a Bible which I wrote a small note in to encourage him.
 
The countenance of Joe last night was remarkably changed. He was upbeat and appreciative on so many fronts given the fact the charge of murder is still hanging above him.  He told me "Jim, I know God is real and I believe He is makeing life better for me each passing day .."  I felt myself tearing up but with a sense of joy for the candle that had been lit in his cave of hopelessness.  Again on my departure, I pulled him along side of me, held both his hands at the wrists tightly as he gripped mine and I prayed for thanking God for protecting him and lifting him and asking God to continue to light his way through the turmoil of his future.  We stood and hugged and he smiled widely, first smile of sincerity I had seen from Joe during our brief few weeks together.
 
Why do I share this?  Many people reading this are in a cave with seemingly no exit and cannot find the light to escape the dungeon of doom.  It only takes one candle to be lit for it can be seen for eternity is how I view it.  Are you in a cave or would you happen to have a few candles and some matches for some others in dire need of the small ray of light?  Be a candle and be proud of that light that comes from the only true source of light which is Christ.
 
I hope this is an encouragement for each of you; it is for me for my eyes are still wet. Pray for the Joe's of this world for there are far too many to count.  I have worked now with nearly 230,000 men and women in a prison environment over these eleven years and guess who still gets the blessing from the toil, disappointments, failures, challenges, smells, frustrations, etc,? That would be me!!